In The Spirit

I can't believe that this is the second time I'm doing this. Last night I set up the exact same blog and couldn't find it today. I am going to let you know what I wrote last night. My name is Patty and I am an addict. I hated myself and didn't have that light in the tunnel. I could let you know my sob story and how and when and why I began to hide in drugs and alchol but this isn't at all about me. "And the Word was preached throughout the world". Three and a half years ago, I knew there was no hope for me and I, who has always been a believer in God, said to Him. Well, God, either you're real or not. I challanged Him to save me because I knew I had nothing to live for anymore. I laid in my bed and put as many painkillers and liquor as I possibly could into my mouth and simply asked Him if He was real. That night and the entire next day He couldn't have made it more plainer - Yes, He is real and alive in me and proved it to me beyond a shadow of a doubt. My body was shaking and I couldn't even talk to my 21 year old son except to repeat word straight from the Bible and spoke as the old prophets spoke. My son knew, as he also believed in God, that it wasn't me speaking but the Spirit inside me. My old person died that day and from then on I was a new person in Christ. I knew it - I felt it - I believed it- God spoke to me and said "CHANGE AHAB". I never even heard of that name until that night. When you are touched like that you know that it couldn't be anything else but your Creator. My life started that day.